So I have the money to put the KZ on the road, and I know what I have to do to do it. Do I have the strength? Not looking good. I had the shakes pretty bad earlier. Its getting better, but here I sit in the basement in my chairs, chairs I got from John Deedy about a year ago. Green club chairs I think they are. The basement is a mess.

The lawsuit is all done with. Paid the lawyers off, and now I am free and clear. I can pay mom back just as soon as the Triumph is sold. Ain't that a kick in the balls? I'm listening to some new song that came out that sounds like some old song - can't place my finger on it... I think we're coming full circle with rock. 

In the cabinet I have there is a picture of Kyle which used to hang in the stairs but got knocked down when Ducci was going up them a while back. There are also about 50 English bike mags, and about 15 empty Pepsi cans. 

I was in the bath tub for 4 hours yesterday because I couldn't see how to get out of the tub. Mom mentioned the thought that I might be better off in a "home" where I could receive proper treatment and care. I think I'd die in such a place. Either that or I'd go totally out of my mind. Something like that would rob me of my good humor and my spirit - much of which is all I have left.

Ian said something, let me find it... 

good lord sir. u do not think very highly of urself

 Which was in response to this very blog, or one of the posts. I should have asked what he meant by it, because I am rather curious. Perhaps its the self doubt which seems to prevail here if no where else but in the notebooks? 

I don't know. My back is on fire. I am going to read up on how to install the camshafts. 

Reading The Fortunes of War - Jack and Stephen are in Boston having been captured by the USS Constitution. It is like reading about old friends.

I am also becoming a fan of this stickam site that I discovered recently.

At any rate though, I am bound to return to my books and perhaps my bike, so I'll write more later. 

Ordered two tins of tobacco today. Bombay Extra, at last my old friend will return to me, either tomorrow or Saturday. This black ambrosia by MacBaren is good, but it's no substitute to my Bombay Extra. 

Well the KZ1000 has the sprocket, chain, covers installed. It's all coming together, I have to get the head sorted out. That should be a day or two's project, I might also have to rebuild those carbs - which I am not looking forward to. Might bring them down here tonight for a run through. 

I have all the engine bolts I think I'm going to need. Found the exhaust nuts too. I think the whole thing is going to come together pretty well. I think there's a chance the points are even good. 

So I might get this thing running for the cost of 5 quarts of oil, 4 spark plugs, and a tank of gas. 

From there I'm going to have to tune it up and really go through it. But in all seriousness this could all work out VERY well for me.

Kawasaki

Ok, so the money is almost here to continue with the KZ1000. Which is good because there's now been a $4000 bid on the Triumph T100 which means that it will for sure not be mine any longer. I just hope it goes for more than that, Kelly Blue Book value is close to $6000 and it has over $1000 in performance parts added on. But I need the money to settle the lawsuit, so, well I need the money, and I have no other options. 

So I wrote up a list of the parts I need for the KZ.

Acid for the battery.

Eight 8mm nuts and washers so that I can fasten the exhaust.

Headlight Rim $21

Headlight $6

Points assembly $50

Bolt Set $27

Tensioner? $51

Engine oil $30

Speedo Cable $13

Tach Cable $13

CSS Lock Washer $4

Spark Plugs $9

Timing Light $64

Carb Bolts $3.50

Tank Rubber $3

Turnsignals $34

Signal Stems $14.50

That said.... We're trying to be smarter about things, so what I need.. 

Battery Acid $10

Exhaust Nuts $8

Ignition Kit $18.26

Bolt Set $27

Engine Oil $30

Speedo Cable $13

Tach Cable $13

Spark Plugs $9

Timing Light $64

Tank Rubber $3

So the bike won't be as pretty because it will have this monstrous fairing on the front, but that saves me a boat load in turn signals, headlight parts... I don't need an all new Points set up, I just need the rebuild kit. I don't think I need the tensioner. 

The trick is that this idea will leave me a couple hundred bucks left over just in case something else needs replaced. That's the key here. To do it smart. 

7:32AM

Listening to some Springsteen, some Filter, Our Lady Peace, Tool, ACDC, and I don't know what else.

Been up all night again. It's apparently 65 degrees outside, but down here in my basement its cold, barely pulling off the t-shirt and that's helped with a wool blanket. 

Gonna go to sleep now.

Writers Block so a Survey Game

RULES:
Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
You must write that song name down no matter how silly it sounds!


IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY?
Fire It Up - Black Label Society 

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
Hedwops - Nemes

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Use Somebody - Kings of Leon

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Wagon Wheel - Covered by Zach Silvey

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Down In Texas - Zach Silvey & Zero

WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO?
Juicebox - The Strokes

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
You Know You're Right - Nirvana 

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Pure Morning - Placebo

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
Over There - no idea, WWI song

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Moving in Stereo - The Cars

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Buffalo Soldier - Bob Marley

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Aneurysm - Nirvana 

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Bittersweet Symphony - Richard Ashcroft

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Handlebars - Flobots

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Unbelievable - EMF

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
The World is a Vampire - Smashing Pumkins.

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Jam - Zach Silvey

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?

Letter From Maria - Zach Silvey - Cover

WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW?
Mad World - Gary Jules

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Sinnerman - Nina Simone

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Fire Water Burn - The Bloodhound Gang

survey for who ever stumbles through to fill out...

... because i told someone i would and keep my word... pardon lowercase. typing one handed do to pain.

1.Whats your Name?

2. What Country are you from?

3. What do you think of me?

4. Describe me in 3 words?

5. If u saw me in the street what would you do?

6. What was ur first impression of me when you first read the blog?

7. Do u still think the same?

8. What reminds u of me?

9. If you could give me anything what would it be?

10. How well do u know me from my blog?

11. What do u like best about my blog?

12. Give me a nickname and explain why?

13. R u gona put this on ur blog and c wat i say bout u?

14. Anything 2 say b4 u go?

House

Watching the very end of House. The poor man just had a bit of a breakdown. Great actor, there is so much depth in his eyes, you can read it all in his eyes. 

Going to start a record, give me a moment.

So the house. My house, or rather Mom's house, not House the show, but the house. I love lines like that...

So the house... There is much to do still with this living space, and the garage. Have to take the leaves down tomorrow. Have to clean it up, organize it somehow. I have so much space and I also have so much STUFF. In this room the desk, the two club chairs, the little magazine table I made out of an old kitchen cabinet. But there is also the stuff! 2 motorcycle frames, an engine, bed rails, engine parts, gas tanks, boxes full of bike parts... So much STUFF. Yet its all attached to me somehow. So I am trapped with it until I can un-attach myself from it. Bugger.

I have to sort this all out more. It has to improve somehow. 

Talked to Ian again tonight. *shakes fist at Sean* Haha, a friend told him about this blog, or alluded to it, and then I got all concerned and asked him - Ian - if he knew about it, and ended up giving it to him. I'm not sorry though. Was a good conversation. The boy is interested in movies and they are endlessly rattling around in the rat trap that is my mind. Some fiction, but I think until I can get the true ones out I'll be doomed to unfinished novels and unfinished movies. So I might just finally write it all up, I am in a place where I don't know where I am going, which might be the perfect place to end the movie that had no ending. As in how do you end a story that's not done yet? 

I don't know. I just don't know. My left knee Really hurts. I'm also oddly hungry. Might hobble up to get some food in a minute.

Liam god love him has offered me his XS400 for winter riding. Pretty cool of him I think. Be a good bike for it.

Jon is arguing with me over what my intentions are for sorting the KZ's head. I'm either looking at $35 or $150. I'd like to try the $35 solution first. It has a real chance of working, and I'd like to try it, and we're down to my money, and I'm the one who'll be riding the bike the next year and a half. So there is a lot to be said for that. We'll see. I have every intention of trying my idea first. I'm the one who went to the fucking mechanics school for 6 months, there is something to be said for that.

Ok, I'm going to go look at the head, then probably go find some food.