Ok that title isn't completely fair.
I have three friends, Mike, Cole, and Dan.
Mike and Cole have been dating for about a year. I've been friends with Cole for quite a while, we'd hang out and go for walks and just talk. I've been friends with Mike for a little less of that time, but not much less. I introduced them. I became friends with Dan a couple months ago, and saw a solid friendship in the making. It was kind of nice because he's fairly local, but separate of Mike and Cole for the most part.
So how does it go? How do you think it goes?
Mike met Dan online, and got to liking Dan. He'd hoped to hang out with Dan and keep seeing Cole, but it just didn't work out that way. So now Mike and Cole have split up. Something that puts me in a hell of a situation because I'm really good friends with both of them. Then I really like Dan, but Mike wants to date Dan now, or at least he did before he and Cole split up.
So I sort of watched this thing unfold, trying to support Mike while also talk him out of it at first, but there's only so much you can do in that line... I long ago discovered that if you push your ideas or feelings too hard on somebody who has a mind set that you'll push them away, and not only will they follow through with their plan anyways but it will cost you the friendship, or at the very least throw a large fucking wrench into the gears. So instead I got to sit back and watch the thing begin to unfold, or in a better way of looking at it, its like knowing a bomb is about to go off and there is nothing you can do about it...
I wanted to talk to Cole about it but Mike had told me he'd planned to, so there was really nothing I could do there, I mean I could have, but in order to help the one I'd have to betray the other. So instead I watched Cole get blind sided.
So now I'm banging my head against the wall. Because I watched two close friends get hurt tonight. Mike is one of my favorite people on the planet and he's going to lock me out now, I can feel it. The only chances I got to see Mike was when he was with Cole. I'll still get to hang out with Cole, it will sort of go back to the way it was before they were dating. We'll find opprotunities to get together. But Mike... ohhh Mike.
I've started writing my book again, I took a little break.
Anyways, I'm going to split, watch some 24, maybe go to bed, maybe work on the bike, I don't know.
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About Me
- Jack Greenman
- Cry Havoc and Let Slip the Dogs of War! But no, really, I'm a student to be a motorcycle mechanic, I'm 25, I write a lot, I eat less than I should, I sleep less than I should, but I like to get out and live. I don't drink, but I smoke a pipe. My sense of style is at Least 40 years out of date, I am who I am, and That's who I am.
Hey Jack --
ReplyDeleteI can't imagine having to had watch it unfold from your shoes. I wish it hadn't gone the way it did, but I don't fault you for making the moves you made. It's been a really shitty week, and I miss "Mike" a ton. He's a great friend and was an amazing boyfriend. I can't say I think he acted completely in the right, but he's acted so much older than his years the rest of the time I've known him that for him to act his age now can't be completely unexpected.
You can't blame "Cole" for this -- he's been brought into unfairly, and shouldn't be forced to choose whether or not I get hurt. I don't know him at all, but from what I have heard I doubt he meant any harm.
I really hope everything works out between "Mike" and I in the end, but with each day I'm feeling more and more that it won't. We've had a good run of things, and did better than many thought we would. The fact that he and I are still on good terms goes to show that we really do care about each other even if we don't agree on everything, and don't want to see that change.
As for you seeing "Mike" -- he'll be able to drive soon, and he adores you, so I'm sure you'll get to see him soon enough.
Feel better Jack, this is the last thing you need to be worrying about right now.
--"Dan"