He's my type. Shorter, skinny, strong, good features. Had all the signs and flags that I look for - which can be tricky because I don't go for the obvious gays. But he just... you look at him and you think "he's gay". But then that girl in the picture... well that's his wife. Not like oh me and my gf are practically married.... no no no... they ARE married. So errrr.... well he could be gay, he could be bi, or I could have had it totally wrong and he is most certainly straight.
This is a bit of a disappointment even though I knew from the start that he was out of my class. I rate looks in old naval terms. You have brigs, sloops, 3rd rate, 2nd rate, and 1st rate frigates, you have 1 deckers, 2 deckers, and 3 deckers. The last three can also be cataloged by rates. At any rate in general looks when cleaned up I'm a 1st rate frigate. Davis is a 1st rate 3 decker. See a frigate wouldn't normally fight a 3 decker because they are out gunned, out manned, and thus it is out of their class. There is no loss of honor in tucking in your tail and running like hell from a 3 decker.
So that's the end of Davis. I'll continue to be nice, and I will try to become a friend to some extent, but I will not make any attempts to make any indication that I am interested. The risk has gone up quite a bit higher with him.
I should point out that by all rights I am closeted here. I wasn't back in Worcester. I've never been a flag flyer. I have as much pride in being bisexual as the average straight guy has in being straight. He doesn't fly a flag, he doesn't walk around saying "Hi, I'm Tom, and I'm Heterosexual" and I see no reason and feel no reason to do so either. But back East it was common knowledge from the age of 18 to 24 when I moved out here. Everyone who knew me or knew of me - knew. It just gets around.
Out here I haven't said "Oh, hey, by the way, I dig guys too - oh, ya, actually more than girls" because in the beginning the toasts of "More Beers, Fewer Queers" dissolved any inclination to do so, and as time went on I just haven't had the opprotunity. As anyone who is gay or bi - but not obviously so knows, it's a bit tricky because you ACTUALLY HAVE TO SAY IT. Which I find awkward as hell. It is my personal life and not something I tend to talk about. I play cards close to my chest as it where. And no one has said "Hey are you gay" - to which the answer is technically No. But they also haven't said "Hey are you Bi?" or my favorite "Any chance you aren't totally into girls?" which leaves a lot of room to tread water - which is why it has always been my line of choice.
Now... Hatchett. That is the name of a dude in my current class. Cute dude. He actually looks quite a bit like that dude Shannon who has a blog on here, the same boyish face. But his face is just excellent. Good strong arms too. That's really all I can gather with our school uniforms. He's a nice kid, works hard, asks for help when he needs it.
I found his myspace and his facebook last night. On facebook he's not listed as gay or straight, he's just not listed. Myspace is private. I sent an add tonight. So we'll see how that goes. He is the guy who I would love to get to know more. He's a california skater. Down to earth guy. He's not built like Davis. But he's definitely out of my class as well. Still I feel an obligation to try.
The only other obvious kid is well... obvious. Of course the Emo scene has thrown us all for a loop because before a dude who acted a bit fem, wore women's jeans, and all that crap were quite obviously gay. But now you have Emo guys who dress like gayish guys who could very well be straight guys... *shakes fist at Emo scene* ... This dude, I don't even know his name is cute, blonde, and well I swear to Poseidon that he is gay. But I have been wrong before.
At any rate that's it for me for now. We'll see what happens. And by We I mean Me because I am quite certain I am the only person here.
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