I haven't gotten much time in with the fiddle yet, I'm still working on that... my hands and arms hurt too much of the time, but time will tell. I love the fiddle, it will just take time.


This was taken just now. Hahahaha, man I look like hell, but at least I'm still kicking.



I'm not feeling so good right now. I'm about to take my morning batch of meds. The most bastardly thing just happened. I have this molar that cracked in half after an incident in Phoenix - where I pulled out the broken half with a pair of pliers (high pain tolerance) and well now its like half a tooth and an open spot - well the 25mg pills that I take 1x a day are really small, and one just got stuck in the damned tooth - took a bit of effort and some pain to get it out. Thats just sore luck. I am SO not looking forward to the dentist when ever I have to finally go. With my tongue I can count 5 teeth that going to need SERIOUS work. But that broken one, that just scares me because 10:1 they are going to have to take it out and there really isn't much to grip, so they'll probably have to dig it out... so you can see why I feel some need to delay the inevitable...

In my defense, when you're in so much pain you're pissing in bottles because the hobble to the bathroom is too far, or say you spent a few months on narcotic pain killers, or a month or so asleep because the new nerve pain med had that side effect... well the whole perfect teeth thing sort of gets forgotten. I do brush, but I haven't been strong enough to climb into the bath tub the last few days, life just sucks sometimes. YES I made it to SJ for a show but my mother and even the contractor working on the house didn't want to let me out.

Fuck it. Right? and I'm bailing cause the pain is on the climb.