Tonight was rough with pain which is more tricky now without health insurance and thus without pain medications, but I'm working on that. Going to school tomorrow early to try to get more loans and to get a proper multi-meter.
Questions and Answers survey I stole from Cody
Do you think the last person you kissed cares for you?
Nope, they're dead.
What are you excited for?
Going to sort the Enfield this weekend and Balducci is flying in from Korea next Wed.
Who is the third person on your top?
The Offspring. I only have a handful of actual friends on here.
Do you believe what goes around comes around?
I try to, but it's hard sometimes, especially when so many people die far too young to get the better end of the stick.
Have you ever cried from being so mad?
Yes, but for me grief and anger tend to dance hand in hand.
Who did you last yell at?
Yell at? In anger? Nobody in at least 7-8 months.
What was the last thing to make you laugh?
Seeing Zack all strung out on cocaine - the energy drink.
Did you cry today?
A bit in class but that was when the pain in my ribs was up to a 9 and I was trying to sit there and shine it on, I couldn't leave because I'm not going to leave school early again, and I don't like to show strangers how much pain I'm in so I just sat there and looked depressed, instead of here where I would curl up into a ball and wait for the pain to go away or escalate till I pass out.
Did you ever lose a best friend?
Sam killed himself Feb 3 2006, I was with him when he died, his arm around my should. I don't tend to loose friends in arguments, I tend to loose friends to drugs, suicides, and murder.
Where will you be two hours from now?
In bed praying for sleep to come and take me away.
Can you make yourself sneeze?
No, when I try I end up coughing up blood. Is that bad?
What's your current mood?
tired, hammered, weary, sad, but also happy and excited because I made it through class even if just being there.
Who was the last person to yell at you? For what?
My uncle Matt because apparently my visiting him in Boulder with a not perfectly running motorcycle was a horrible burden to him. I can't blame him too much, he's apparently dying - though why he chose to tell me on the 1 year anniversary of my father's death I will never be sure. Sure as hell didn't help me, he's dad's younger brother, my favorite uncle, and frankly since he told no one else I still can't fathom what reason he would have for this.
What are you stressed out about?
My health, money, rent, school, life, love, happyness, lack of sleep.
Do you have a best friend?
I have a few. The two I both know I can tell anything to and feel utterly comfortable doing so without judgement are Kyle and Liam.
Missing someone?
Yes.
Who was the last person to look at you like you were crazy?
Some kid in class tonight.
Talked to a jerk today?
Yup, but several of my best friends are jerks, haha.
Been to a concert lately?
Not since just after Dad died, saw Collective Soul, Counting Crows, and Live.
What made you sad today?
I was thinking about things I will never have.
Has a boy/girl called you babe or baby in the past two days?
nope.
Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
definitely.
What are your plans for the weekend?
Work on the Enfield, maybe the Triumph, go grocery shopping, try to connect with Joe. The usual.
What were your first thoughts this morning?
....fuck....
Do you know anyone who has messed up your life?
I can think of a few who are still alive, but most of them are dead now.
Is there any meaning behind your profile song?
All of them connect with some part of my soul.
Are most of the friends in your life new or old?
In my life here? All new. But they are solid reliable friends, which makes them the best kind.
Do you want to hit something?
I would if my hands didn't hurt so damned much
Who's the last person you hugged?
ummmm.... Jasmine I think, a couple months ago, before that it was family members in July '08, before that it was a lot of people in july '07 when dad died, and before that it had been years.
Day been rough?
Not till about 8:30PM
is there someone you want to be spending time with right now?
I can think of a few people who I wish were in my apartment with me, but I hold no expectations of them ever being in here with me.
Plans for your next birthday?
Thats 11 months from now, part of me wonders if I'll even still be alive.
Are you open about your feelings or closed off?
I will answer any direct question openly and honestly, and I write a lot, but I don't generally TELL people things on my own accord.
What are you listening to?
Bowl of Oranges - Bright Eyes
Do you think your best friend and you will be friends in 10 years?
I've been friends with Kyle since 2002, and I have been friends with Liam since 2004. With the beauty of the internet - assuming the entire world doesnt fuck itself soon, yes.
How long have you known your best friend?
I just answered that didn't I? Kyle 7 years, Liam 5 years, Brent 10 years, Jon 11 years, John 10 years, Paul 5 years, Chris 5 years...
Did you laugh at something today?
Several things in class I think.
What do you want right now?
Peace with all the things I'm not at peace with. That and money. Money would be more useful as I need it for rent, food, health care, medication, insurance, etc.
Did you enjoy your last weekend?
A pal of mine shot himself in the head which kind of put a damper on things.
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About Me
- Jack Greenman
- Cry Havoc and Let Slip the Dogs of War! But no, really, I'm a student to be a motorcycle mechanic, I'm 25, I write a lot, I eat less than I should, I sleep less than I should, but I like to get out and live. I don't drink, but I smoke a pipe. My sense of style is at Least 40 years out of date, I am who I am, and That's who I am.
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